It's my new swear. Try it out yourself.

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Reminder: Today is the LAST DAY to pre-order the new Kawaii Not t-shirts. I promise they have one head hole and two arm holes, just in case you were concerned about their "t-shirtness."

**Note: I can also accept money orders and super-well-concealed cash for t-shirts orders. E-mail me today at meghan at kawaiinot.com for more info.**

I modeled for liselotte_e a couple of days ago. Click the photo to see the flickr set.

http://dooce.com/2008/05/16/no-i-wasnt-punched-face-just-what-happens-when-i-weep

The past three days have been a whirlwind of chaos, and this is honestly the first moment I've had since Monday to sit down and catch my breath. I had planned to sit down and write about this funny thing that happened at the grocery store the other night, but right now I'm just too sad to do it. And I'm sitting here trying not to cry because this afternoon I'm doing a taping with the local PBS station for a show that's running tonight (see here), and when I cry my eyes swell and bloat to the size of a watermelon.

A couple of weeks ago my dear stepfather, the one who almost had me sentenced to death by firing squad for eating his last slice of bologna, was diagnosed with a lymphoma when they found a tumor the size of a football in his back. He started chemotherapy last week and has since been in and out of the emergency room for complications at least twice. I'm not quite sure how to explain my relationship with my stepfather, only that he is as important to me as my own father and has played such a significant role in Leta's life. He is her Grandpa Rob, and she will carry with her the most amazing memories of sitting at his coffee table to put together puzzles. He has been the most indefatigable support for my mother throughout her busy career in Avon and has sacrificed many of his own ambitions so that she could be the success that she is. He is honest, stubborn, sometimes a total pain in the ass, but mostly he is the type of person who would throw his body in front of a bus if it meant helping you out in the tiniest possible way. He means everything to our family, and now we are all facing the unknown.

Suddenly I'm facing some very confusing feelings. I'm not going to get too much into that here, only to say that where once I had the Mormon religion to inform me, I'm here now without that safety net trying to piece some things together. Which I guess is a way of saying that I'm still trying to figure out what I believe. And I know that admitting that is going to open me up to all sorts of judgment, but I don't think this makes me much different from a lot of people out there who are also trying to figure it all out. I don't think I'm alone in saying, yeah, I don't know, and I'm mostly okay with that. Sometimes, like right now, I'm not okay with that.

I do know that I love my stepfather deeply and want nothing more than for him to get better.

This week would also have been the 40th week of the pregnancy that ended in a miscarriage last October. Is it morbid that I remember the due date, will always remember the due date? Or that I am so incomprehensibly sad about it still? My life has changed so much since that horrible Wednesday afternoon, and Jon and I have had endless debates and conversations about our future and whether or not we should try for another baby knowing that I might have to go through that again. And if you want to know, we are still undecided. Every time I see someone who is pregnant I get a very weird feeling in my stomach, and I think it's from a wild mixture of feelings, one of loss, one of hope, one of knowing that they are having a tremendously difficult time trying to roll over in bed at night and how exhausted they are in the morning, one of envy that they soon will meet that new little person in their life. I don't think I'll ever be able to see someone who is pregnant and not immediately feel my stomach turn a flip.

Right now I am just barely holding my shit together, and I know that I'll be better to handle these feelings if I could just sleep through the night. I've had insomnia for three straight weeks, and my body is slowly collapsing. This may be one of those many instances when I head back to my therapist and say listen, I'm having a hard time, please help me climb this mountain.

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This was part of a large body-care package that Jon and Leta gave to me for Mother's Day. It's a foot soak that will be perfect for the rough edges that form from wearing flip-flops and walking around barefoot in the summer. Best part was when Leta presented the gift to me and I asked her what it was. She said, "I don't know! Daddy's the one who bought it!" Like, dude, I'm just here because he said I had to do this, can I please go play Candy Land now?

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Coco is such a four-year-old kid in the sense that she's not interested in anything other than what Chuck is playing with. She fought for that tennis ball for over an hour, and when Chuck finally got bored and relinquished it she stood there like, wait a minute. This toy is not valuable if my having it does not infuriate you. They teach this principle in high school science classes.

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I can't find information on this anywhere!


Strawberry dress!!!
Too bad it's 9,999r on the furima....

What are some items that you absolutely love, but seem to be under-appreciated on the market?

For an example, I love these dresses (own all three!)

and think they're absolutely adorable

but they rarely go for more than 20 ribbons!

Some old coordinates


So what are your favorite under-appreciated items?

Sorry if you see this outfit twice today, though I'm posting sillier different photos here than on egl.

hello! anyone up for a fast comment club? i missed the previous one.

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I listed an old doll of mine on Etsy. Click the picture to go there.

I just tested the comment ribbon reset time and came to a conclusion! It's not 12:30 like commonly thought, but 12:25!

I accomplished this by, in a state of having used up all my ribbons from a comment club, commenting on one of my friends' items (thanks Ren!) once a minute from 12:18 until the "You received 1 ribbon" came up. It came up at 12:25.

We might be able to assume that all reset times are 5 minutes ahead of the times currently stated, but if anyone else is willing to test out the theory on the other times, be my guest :3

http://galadarling.com/article/carousel-week-ending-16th-may-2008

Shortest Carousel ever! Literally! May I attempt to placate you with a photo of myself sitting in Alice’s lap? (This statue is in Central Park & is a must-see if you’re ever in the city.)

Yummy pictures: Edita Vilkeviciute by Solve Sunsbo (dots & stripes & patterns with light!); Olga Sherer is beautiful (NSFW); a lovely cyborg-esque girl by Ruven Afanador; Karen Elson & Steven Meisel in a circus-themed shoot for Vogue Italia, & Clemence Poesy by Ellen Von Unwerth for Lula.

Oh do you know the Fifi Lapin, the Fifi Lapin, the Fifi Lapin? Oh do you know the Fifi Lapin, who lives on Drury Lane? (To be sung to the tune of Do You Know The Muffin Man, of course!) A bunny in the latest designer duds? Count me in!

Guy Kawasaki shares his favourite things from the Maker Faire in San Mateo.

Tina Su is fantastic. She recently left the United States for India, where she was trialing out Tim Ferriss’ “mini-retirement” idea. However, the reality was not all that she dreamed it would be. The Mini-Retirement Misconception is an absolute must-read for anyone who feels like all they want to do is travel! I promise!

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Go ga-ga for May's iCiNG Treats, whipped up by the inimitable Nubby Twiglet!

http://www.alexanderlucard.com/wordpress/?p=929

Whoo! Three day weekend! And so of course I’m spending it writing. Always busy. Always too busy it seems.

LOST was awesome last night. My two favorite moments were seeing Sun be as evil as she is hot (well except for the preggers belly) and Hurley in the car when he looked at the odometer. I wish Jack had found out about Claire being his sister in a totally different way though. A week off and then the two hour season finale. Whoo!

Finishing up my FF:CC review today, then it’ll be Castle Shikigami III and Wii Fit I believe coming next.

Crazy week at work as I already put 40 hours in. I really don’t want to have to hit that level of busy again. I’ve jusrt come home too wiped to work out or talk to anyone. Hopefully this weekend will be a bit wacky.

I only have a limited amount of time this morning and I've been missing the previous clubs. so I'm going to take a cue from decapre! Let's Go! :)

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i've updated about 20 subcategories so far, but i will be updating more throughout the day ^^

i wanted to mention that today we hit a milestone of sorts, the onepiece: onpiece post was too big for livejournal to process. basically, it went over the size limit because the database has so many onepiece: onepiece items :D

so i had to split it into two separate posts, onepiece: onepiece I & onepiece: onepiece II.
the links for which have been updated on the profile page.